i really need to blog more often here. no one will read it so i can really speak my mind. so it's been way over a year since i've miniblogged. so let's make this a long one. it's been a god awful week so it'll probs be about that.

so!

my parents are completely driving me crazy. my boyfriend too. i'm really suprised he's still around cause they're so bad. my car was totaled last week, and i loved the thing to death. i want another volkswagen, but they are convinced they're too overpriced so i can't get one. so i've opened up some options, and i really like the pontiac g6. i found an 05 that's reasonably priced (slightly under $10k) , low miles, and awesome color. took it for a test drive and i really like it. my dad thinks there's a "shimmy" when it stops. okay, have the dealer look at it. not only that, but my father thinks that since pontiac went out of business, they'll stop making parts, so years from now when i'm in need of some parts, they'll be expensive and hard to find. which is possible, but there are so many pontiacs on the road, there will be parts available. so i went from wanting another volkswagen to settling (and really liking) a pontiac. i'm really limited budgetwise, mind you, and it fits my budget. however, both parents are convinced they need to find me a different car. so today, we went to go look at a mercury milan. yeah they're a nice car, but oh my god do you really see a 19 year old driving that? i think not. yeah it may be an 06 with 19k miles on it, but it's so not for me. it hasn't been cleaned yet and there is CAT HAIR all over the thing! even without noticing that at first, i said to them it looks like a 60 year old hermit cat lady or man would drive this. point taken. maybe not for them. yes, it got better reviews, but people still complained about it. the g6 got good reviews too, but complained about bad power seats and the cd player breaking. the milans complaints is that its hard to back up. i feel like that's a bit more important, no?

so this whole week has been ungodly frustrating. i've found other good cars i like online, call them, they're sold. this one i like hasn't been sold, is online, is 4 miles away from my home, and is a safe car my parents want, with everything i want. but for some reason i guess cause i like it, the parents won't let me get it. okay, let me get the $14k car instead in which I DONT HAVE MONEY FOR. yeah i work, but 24 hours a week won't cut it. plus, i need a car asap before i move back to school. granted, i'm going to a new school, which is a story in and of istelf which caused a lot more unwanted stress with my parents. but i'll save time. let's just say, my parents have changed. the extended family can't stand them and are on my side no matter what. they've turned crazy, and i don't know what it is, aside from me growing up and not listening to them anymore. i'm my own person with my own opinions and can't be their robot slave daughter anymore. they need to learn that. heck, i'm even starting to sketch out my wedding dress. granted, i probably won't be getting married for another 2-3 years, but still. i plan on making it. which might be the coolest but dumbest thing i've ever decided to do. hey, if i start now, i might finish the night before the wedding day, right? :) i just think it would be so awesome to tell my future spawn that i made my own wedding dress. and to shove it in my parents faces. i doubt they'd pay for the wedding anyway, even though it's customary for the bride's parents to pay for the wedding. better start saving now. oh wait i can't i gotta help buy myself a car.

thanks for doing your job, parents. oh wait. nevermind you don't. i have to fully support myself on a part time job at a grocery store. at least my boyfriend is going to apply for a manager position. he'll be a 23 year old produce manager for publix. hell yes. i'll be just some lame ass student with hardly any money and shitty parents that have mentally abused me. but my one psychology class i took definitley helped me see their mental abuse and i'm slowly starting to overcome the effects even though they still abuse me to this very day. they're damn hypocritical, then tell me i'm disrespectful, a princess, a bitch, spoiled, a child, never good enough, blah blah blah. when i basically help support myself? yeah, you're paying for my school and car/health/life insurance. congrats. that's what you're supposed to do. plus support them in everyday life, not just financially, but emotionally too. i've told you i've had back and sleep problems for almost a year now, and every time all i get is a "oh well, tomorrow we'll look into it." you mean tomorrow as in the day that's always a day away and never the current day? okay, i can deal with that... just don't get my hopes up that my back pain and insomnia will actually go away at some point.

i'm just fed up with having my soul crushed by them. i don't know how i've lasted this long, and i don't think i can last much longer than this. if anyone that actually read part or some of this has any advice or input, feel free.

as of right now, i feel like getting the car I WANT, running away, and maybe even eloping. (even though i'd love to make my own dress, i wouldnt have time for that... ;D)

oh well. that's all for now. maybe i'll start updating this more often.. it's not like i have a myspace, facebook, twitter, livejournal, and vampirefreaks account to take care of :)

yeeeeah so -- me=in need of a blog. =D

my doggie has cancerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :'( its so saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!

and by the way, junior year really is the toughest year EVER. my parents arent being supportive one bit of college, and want me to take all the sats from now til i get accepted into one. X_x and alllll theyre talking about is that im too stupid and i wont get into any colleges. grrr. well at least i have a JOB... and im slowly liking it, although since turkey day is tomorrow its been superfantastically busy all week. ew. itll be even BETTER at christmas. whooo...

oh and i hate getting my car serviced... it was like $280 just to get my oil changed, tires rotated, and "antifreeze flush" and that whole 21 point inspection thing. blah. ALTHOUGH!!!!!!! when i got my car back, the guy that went and got my car for me was insanely good looking. he mustve been a true german volkswagen-er-ese! *lesigh* I HAD AN ATTRACTIVE EUROPEAN BOY DRIVE MY CAR TODAY AND YOU DIDNT. be jealous. mwahahaha

so anyway im really not in that hormonal i hate life moods right now so its a random blog i know.

SECTION ONE- THE BASICS:

Name: Amanda
Age: 16
City: greenville
State: SC
School: SJCS
Grade: 11
Hair color: brownish blond
Real Hair color: more brownish than blond
Eye color: greenish brown
Contacts/Glasses/Neither: contacts AND glasses
Single/Taken: singleeee
Height: 5'8"
Weight: im a fattie.. is that what you want me to say?!
Class: oh eight!


SECTION TWO- have you ever:
x = yes

[x] been to a concert
[x] loved someone not related to you
[x] been camping
[x] drank alcohol
[] been drunk
[x] seen an elephant
[] kissed a frog
[x] mixed a drink
[x] had a pet
[x] read the bible
[x] gone to a party
[xxx] done something you regret
[x] said you hated someone
[ ] had a friend die
[x] gone to a pep ralley
[ ] been homeschooled
[x] played a sport
[] been in a pageant
[x] been on tv
[x] been in the newspaper
[] done drugs
[] rolled a house
[ ] been suspended
[ ] gotten detention
[ ] been grounded
[x] gone to church
[x] slept during class
[x ] gone to prom
[ x] failed a class
[x] cussed at someone
[x] recycled
[ ] forgotten your best friends birthday
[ ] peer pressured someone
[x] been called stuck up
[x] been out of the country
[] snuck out of the house
[] smoked
[ ] cheated on your bf/gf
[x ] done something with someone who had a bf/gf
[x] made fun of someone
[] tried to break up a couple
[x] fought someone


SECTION THREE- What’s / Who’s your FAVORITE:

Movie: garden state
TV show: greys anatomy, house, sex and the city, scrubs, whose line, that 70s show, i love the 90s
Actor: zach braff, hayden christensen, matthew mchonechey, richard gere
Actress: natalie portman, catherine zeta jones
Sport: lax, dance, and theater
Hobby: dance, hang out, and artsy stuff
Place: nyc
Country: france and italy
Language: english and french
Person: any and all of my friends
Class: american lit and sometimes honors french 3
College team: uhhhh st. johns i guess?
Holiday: christmas and groundhogs day
Season: winter
State: ny
Hangout: mall, movies, bowling, anyones house
Store: PacSun
Teacher: mr. burdick. and mrs. koon. and mrs. rhoden.
Grade: 11th
Color: puuuurple
Song: umm i guess right now its between "wind it up" and "chasing cars"
Band: hah.. i dont have one.. i like most alternative stuff though.. snow patrol, roisin murphy, cartel, gwen stefani, all american rejects, the fray, jacks mannequin, plain white ts, justin timberlake
Animal: horses and dogs
Food: italian food and french food. heck yes.
Memory: oh jeeeeeebs. probably any time involving new york city, or new york and the family. =D


SECTION FOUR- Do you….?:

[at times] play an instrument
[x] do your homework
[x]curse
[x] love someone
[sometimes] make good grades
[x =D yay publix] have a job
[at times] like the way you look
[] play sports
[rarely] drink
[] smoke
[] do drugs
[x] party
[x] smile a lot
[] dip
[] litter
[x] give hugs
[x] flirt a lot
[ ] cheat
[x] regret something
[xxx] miss someone
[sometimes] like where you live
[] lie
[] steal
[x] compliment people
[x] call the opposite sex
[x] do things your parents wouldn’t approve of
[x] travel
[x] write poetry
[x] drive
[x] respect your elders
[] protest
[] get angry easily
[x] study

wheeee! i love my new found freedom(s)

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

im normal.. yeah. definitely.

How come every time you come around
My London London Bridge wanna go down
Like London London London wanna go down
Like London London London be going down like

Drinks start pouring
My speech start slurring
Everybody start looking real good (Oh, shit)

The Grey Goose got your girl feeling loose
Now I wishing that I didn't wear these shoes (I hate heels)
It's like everytime I get up on the dude
Paparazzi put my business in the news
And I'm get up out my face (oh, shit)
'fore I turn around and spray your ass with mace (oh, shit)
My lips make you wanna have a taste (oh, shit)
You got that? I got the bass (Uh)

AHHHHHHHH I LOVE THIS SONG.

*again.. im normal... my apologies*

UNTIL NEXT TIME BATMAN!

mandas ramblings have ended at 10:53pm but never fear she WILL return